déjà vu?

I know you so well ... I knew that it was only a matter of time before time repeated itself once again. Last year when you left me for another girl I thought I would never get over it ... Stupidly enough though, I took you back. Everything I ever did for you was out of love. You took my love for granted though. You never appreciated anything I ever did for you. You made me feel like absolute shit about myself ... Honestly, I deserve SO much better than you. You'd think I'd be over you by now, but no. I still love you with all my heart, and I just cannot let you go. This is getting out of hand though. These games you keep playing with my heart, and mind are getting old, fast. I will never let myself be your 2nd option again. I deserve nothing less than to be your one and only. You should of learned to cherish me, and all the love I had to offer. You'll never find anyone else like me, and definately no one that will ever love you as much I do. I'm one of a kind. I need to be strong. I'm not your fucking doormat. I'm the door, meaning I should be the one shutting you out not the other way around. I just want to be happy again ... but I realize now that I don't need YOU to make me happy anymore. I can only wait around for so long. Please, don't make me wait any longer than I have to for you to come back.