Hmmm ...

I wish my boyfriend would look at me the way he used to ... I wish things were the way they used to be. Like when he used to make me feel wanted, and when he made me feel pretty. I miss those cute texts he sent me that I would wake up to. I miss the pictures we used to take together. I miss the way he used to hold me. *sigh* This boy needs to learn how to appreciate everything that I do for him, which is a lot. Things just aren't the same anymore. :| Something needs to change.

Things are looking up ...

Things are gradually getting better at home. I guess talking about how you feel really does help. It also helps when the other party is being open minded. I hope things continue to get better. I enjoy being happy.

What am I doing? Oh yeah. That's right, I'm doing me.

You can pretend like you know how I feel, or you can act like you know what goes through my head everyday ... but you don't. You're not me, and you say "I know I'm not you." So just let me do me, and you can do you. Sometimes it feels better to talk about how you're feeling, and sometimes it doesn't. At least that's how it is for me. I just want to be able to do whatever I want. Let me make my own mistakes.

Do you know what it feels like ... ?

Do you know what it feels like to completely lose yourself? Do you know what it feels like when it seems as if everybody around you has given up on you? Do you know what it feels like to know that what little you have left could be gone in a second? Do you know what it feels like to watch friend after friend walk out of your life? Do you know what if feels like to love someone so much that it hurts? Do you know what it feels like to be a total disappointment to your family? Do you know what it feels like to just not care about much of anything anymore? Do you know what it feels like to wake up every morning, and feel like you have nothing to live for? I do. I need someone to talk to. I need help. I'm just so unhappy, and I'm just so lost. I don't know what to do anymore. Please, help me. I'm willing to better myself ...